Sunday, October 02, 2005
6:07 PM;
another crappie day of mine
have been feeling crappy lately
oh
crap
when will things ever get better?
no!
stop thinking about it
think about something else
like what?
sigh
can't stop thinking.
can't stop crying either.
this ain't right.
why?why?
how could this happen?
but i should not think so much
i'll get used to it.
he will too.
and we both will.
then,
everything will just end
and things will get
normal.
i'm alone.
and will always be.
ok
what did i do today?
went for my class.
rent some vcds after that
get my butt home.
watch the movies.
and start crying again.
my life is so dead.
nothing but crying.
why am i being such a lil pain?
just leave him alone
and when the time is right
he'll call you back!!!
no.maybe he won't.
why can't someone just tell
me the truth..
just say he don't have
the feelings for me anymore
and that we're through.
i don't know.
is he lying about loving me?
or am i thinking too much.
but his reactions are making me
think this way.
i want my answers.
but it's not going to happen now
not now.
never.
sobx sobx
maybe i should just stop crying.
and
stop thinking.
things will be fine.
one day.
ok.i just lied
to myself.
things aren't going to be fine
it's just getting worst.
doesn't anyone think so?
i lied. and i lied
and i lied..
no one.
she's someone in your life
she's someone you love <3
she'll go nasty if you make her cry.
libra