Monday, October 03, 2005
10:48 PM;
crap.
today shucks.
really shucks.
he still have yet to call me.
sob sob
called him this morning.
went to school.
afternoon.
play basketball.
just few minutes ago.
still not home yet.
i'm beginning to feel numb
about this whole thing.
it's not fair to me.
i never ever leave him alone.
why is he doing this?
probably if i die now,
he wouldn't even care.
anyways, i just came back from work
crap.
was the caller today.
again.
bored of being a caller.
cut the freaking mango.
and cut my hand.
accidentally.
and the blood just can't stop
flowing.
i message him.
just to ask him to call me.
when he reached home.
i hope he does.
i want this whole thing to end.
and it seems like
what i say and pig say
just won't work.
he's still being stubborn.
i might go crazy soon.
sometimes i feel angry about this.
it's not fair to me.
just leaving me alone.
no news.
no calls.
no messages.
sometimes i feel that i'm at fault.
for this whole thing to happen.
but then - again -
he just should not react
this way.
don't i crossed his mind?
not even once?
has he ever asked himself
how am i?
what i'm doing now?
am i ok?
doesn't he feel restless?
weeks not talking to me?
why am i the only idiot
feeling so restless?
nothing i did was ever right?
felt something was missing?
why he doesn't feel this?
sigh
questions, questions and questions.
and he has yet to call.
bet he won't call me.
why is he dragging this?
is it a must for a guy
to torture a girl?
no one.
she's someone in your life
she's someone you love <3
she'll go nasty if you make her cry.
libra