Tuesday, October 04, 2005
4:31 PM;
i'm working todae
bored to death.
so not busy day.
i was dying inside the kitchen.
nothing to do.
and i don't know when
did mathir appear from nowhere.
and as normal yu long was like
i don't know what.
flirting i shall say.
with me.
eeeeewwww.
and mathir saw that.
and they both act like they
are trying to win my heart
or something.
funny when i see them do that.
anyways, i'm home now.
later going back to work again.
he didn't call yesterday.
so i had to call him.
and we did talk a while.
not really a while though.
kinda long.
and he said he still
loves me =).
ok.
felt better when i heard that.
a lot better.
no doubt.
and so we talked.
and even though he didn't
tell me everything,
i felt it was my fault after all.
he said he needed time now.
as he was - is i mean
confused about this.
and he said he will talk to me
on the phone.
but not everyday.
so guess, i'll just leave him alone
for now.
let him have some space to
sort out his mind.
but i'll definitely
call him every now and then.
to check on him.
at least knowing that
he's safe
i'm happy.
and i don't know why
i felt better after talking to him.
guess i know what to do now.
change my freaking attitude.
my temper.
argh.
why was i so hot-tempered?
with him i mean?
see, how far you've gone to
till you hurt someone you
love?
ok.i regretted everything.
and i'm shoorie.
truly i am.
anyways this week work's fun.
since i won't be seeing hans.
haa haa.
he won't be around till thurs?
but i won't be around till sat.
so will only see him on sat.
a very good news.
it's like a big YAY!!!
another update about my work.
i'll probably be quitting my work
-soon-
maybe around mid of nov?
many reasons
1- i'm tired of working
2- want to rest
3- don't like the environment
4- bored of the same old thing
and basically, alot more.
=)
so probably quit around there.
then stop working till jan.
then i'll start working again.
as something else.
i'm so not going back there
-again-
so have myself a break =)
and try new stuffs.
and spend more time with him.
hope so.
just sometimes wondering.
if i will be smiling on my birthday?
wondering if i'll get to see him
on my special day?
hope i'll get to see him.
and forgive me by then
or at least.
hope things will end by then.
and i promise.
i'll try
to make things better
for him and me.
=)
i shall now leave.
to get ready for work.
kind of hungry.
but no appetite
=(
and the cut on my hand
is killing me.
kinda deep i noticed.
=(
no one.
she's someone in your life
she's someone you love <3
she'll go nasty if you make her cry.
libra