Tuesday, May 16, 2006
9:54 PM;
OKAYS. i think i SHOULD cut down on blogging. cause, this is like my 221th post over a year :x. but who cares, once it exceeds, i'll start anew :).
it's a very long and bad day today. i went to school and waited for like 35 min for the bus. how long can that get right? and guess, i was late for school. grrr.
today's school is a bleak. DB is like brain cracking for practical. sighs. and tomorrow, another DB lesson. i shall pronounce myself dead :x. and worst, practical doesn't cost a mark la. it's the group case study that contains mark. don't know why my classmates were so eager doing the practical (cause in the end, teacher will go through the answers and plus the answers CAN BE FOUND in MEL).
after school, i went to meet him for dinner before he go play his basketball. :((((
so looking forward to tomorrow. there's HOCKEY. finally, there's something to look forward for every week.
as i went home today, lots of things went through my mind. i see lots of stuffs. i see couples, the happy ones and the unhappy ones. i see families. i see friends. and there i was thinking, our life is just like an unplanned drama - reality drama (IS DO HELP). all those words that you hear pratically everyday, are like scripts or pick-up lines.
words like :
sorry - do people really mean it when they say sorry? do they mean sorry and not repeat the mistakes? and is sorry all it takes to make someone smile again? and again, it's up to people to see it for themselves. to me, sorry doesn't mean anything. people say but never change. people say and thought it ends everything when actually it doesn't.
i love you / i miss you - do they mean it? does it comes from the heart? i'm beginning to doubt it. people say it and sometimes, it's just words to cover up their lies or their true feelings
people say, smile, you might never know who will fall in love with your smile. right. there's times you smile, and yet still feel un-loved/unappreciated. and there's time you smile, but do you get a smile back? maybe yes, maybe no.
friends are meant to be there whenever you need them (of course, they mean more than this. just one of those thoughts). but who's really a friend? how do you know if they are really someone you can lean on? or are they someone who listen, and spread it around behind your back?
are we born to make people around us happy? and do we really want/try/make people happy even though sometimes it means, losing our own happiness? do we? i don't know.
i don't even know why all these craps were in my thoughts. why why why? okay okay. just forget all those craps. pretend i didn't say anything. : (((((((
no one.
she's someone in your life
she's someone you love <3
she'll go nasty if you make her cry.
libra