Tuesday, May 23, 2006
9:45 PM;
sigh. it's only been a week since i update my blog. and LOTS (i really mean lots) of things have been happening. the ups and downs. but of course, it's more of downs. well, it's never more of ups. downs and downs. lows and lows. :(((. supppper sad. suppper down.
this is the biggest news. i was happily having lunch yesterday, joking and crapping with ruz. when i reached my table, larry just tell us something. one of my classmates died. i was shocked and at the same time, i didn't believe him till my classmates start talking about it. and so, there i was shocked and disappointed plus sad.
and the reason was commiting suicide. after knowing the reason to his death, part of me hated him. why? i don't know. why did he just end his life over something so stupid. but then, again it can't be only that reason, can it? i mean, other then that reason, there must be other reason that follows up till he decided to commit suicide right? and what's the other reason, none of us know. but then again, i pity him to have go through all this. aiya, you know the mixed feelings.
and this is the first time, my friends died and commit suicide. i'm shocked. i'm sad. i can't pretend to be happy either. when my mentor told us the news today, i couldn't concentrate on my studies. just what make him do that?
sigh. this is life. and now, a new chapter of life begins. people come and go. but just don't go the way he did. it's not fair to his parents who raised him up. it's not fair to his loved ones. all i hope is that, i'm not facing another thing like this anymore.
anyways, the happy news is that, my mp3's BACK :))))). yay. it's perfectly fine now. just that i must be free to collect it one of these days. can't wait can't wait. so lonely without mp3. i need music you see. hee hee :DDD
and exams are around the corner. have yet to study :(. that's bad. very bad.
apart from all this, i'll stay strong (i hope). breathe - and everything will be just fine :)
miss these girls la. can't wait for tess to finish her As. and she's ours again :) yay. looking forward to end of year. which is still very very very far :(
no one.
she's someone in your life
she's someone you love <3
she'll go nasty if you make her cry.
libra