NO ONE

Thursday, June 29, 2006

11:19 AM;

oh well, almost a week without updates. aiyayaya. nothing to updates lar.

anyways, we went for training yesterday :). we ran for 2 rounds instead of 3 rounds. haa. all thanks to joanne. and no drills yesterday. so we played games all the way.

1st 2 rounds were girls vs guys. it was fun. but yeah, like normal, i screwed up again. i don't know why, i can't seem to play properly. and it's bringing my mood down. i really felt super hopeless yesterday. i don't know why i played that way. and my stamina is really getting very bad. i can't catch up. and only a few minutes of game, i'm tired. almost die :x

mans. i need to train my stamina again. SIN EE - GYM GYM!! sunday :) . stamina stamina. big problem. no stamina, i'll screw up every sport. but yeah, in skill wise, i screwed too. ARGH! i just didn't play properly yesterday. argh. bringing my mood down. i felt so ~~~.
:((((((

and 1st week of school was quite boring. and we're like filled with assignments already. oh boring. and i'm so looking forward for saturday and tomorrow (:

argh. bring my mood up please :/

no one.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

8:14 PM;

i'm starting to feel sick yesterday, on the way to school. you know feeling sick shucks. especially when you just recover from one. and tell me, seriously, who will ever get tired or sick of eating. and it's my first time feeling this way.

haa. i want to eat. feeling super hungry. but everytime i eat, i feel like vomiting it out. and it just have to happen now. and today, my mum cook my favourite dish. i took quite a lot on my plate, but never finish it. argh. i just hate to be sick :(

anyways, spend the whole day of today and yesterday in bed. sleeping non-stop. i think i'm getting loads of rest. hope i'm getting better. cause i just hate to be sick. imagine you can't go out and the spend the last few days of school holiday at HOME. argh. booo :(((

i'm so glad i got a book to company me today :). the book is called WHERE RAINBOWS END by Cecelia Ahern. it's a beautiful story. it makes you go to dreamland. wishing you had keep your childhood best friend with you right now. haa. but it's all gone. can't turn back time. and i like my life this way now :)

oh well, school is starting soon. argh. its time for wake-up-early, brush-your-teeth-and-bathe, make-your-bed, pack-your-bag, eat-your-breakfast, take-your-pocket-money-and-of-to-school routine. the thought of school make me feel like falling sick and stay home :x

but still...

LOVES<3

no one.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

10:43 PM;

There's another world inside of me

That you may never see

There's secrets in this life

That I can't hide

Somewhere in this darkness

There's a light that I can't find

Maybe it's too far away...

Maybe I'm just blind...

When your education x-ray

Can not see under my skin

I won't tell you a damn thing

That I could not tell my friends

Roaming through this darkness

I'm alive but I'm alone

Part of me is fighting this

But part of me is gone

And no matter how hard I try

I can't escape these things inside

I know, I know

When all the pieces fall apart

You will be the only one who knows

Who knows

no one.

Monday, June 19, 2006

10:50 PM;

haas. guess what? today i went out with pig to town. well, i haven't been to town since feb! so yeah. quite a change there. as in got new shops and stuffs like that. and going with her means more laughters.

FIRST STOP - FAR EAST PLAZA
lunch lunch lunch. we ate lunch at the new halal japanese restaurant. Ramen something. haa. can't remember the shop name. and the food there is super delicious. yum yum. but yeah, price was like the normal restaurant which charges service charge all that. so, that means, can't eat there too often or i'll go broke. walked around far east a while. saw some new interesting shops. yeah! shall go again next time :)

there's a few funny stuffs happening along here. which you all should not know. haas. i will not reveal it!

SECOND STOP - HEEREN
well, i can't stand this place. we totally went crazy here. laugh laugh laugh. non-stop. haa haa. we're like looking for hairbands everywhere but didn't get any -.-. and before we got into heeren, we're like approach by a few people asking us to join LOST. it's cool. but yeah, i shall consider. haa haa.

THIRD STOP - CINELEISURE
nothing much here. i swear. just walked around. and this pig here can't decide which top to buy. haa haa. in the end she decided and i'm like FINALLY!

FOURTH STOP - WISMA ATRIA & TAKA
went to topshop. well, kinda nice the clothes there. shall shop there next time :). and by then, we were super tired and our leg is like breaking. so we were trying to find a place to seat and stuffs but can't decide where. so we went to mrt station, check out all the stations to decide where to go.

THE LAST STOP - MARINA SQUARE
finally decided to have snacks at long john silver. went to puma shop too. and there's this puma bag which is like super yellow! it's so bright. attract my attention. haa. puma's bag is nice. shall get some soon.

and finally, we went home. haa haa. home sweet home. shall go out more with the girls! haven't meet them over the holidays yet :(

sighs. i still miss you. i'm trying to fit into your hectic life. i'm trying to get comfortable with it. i'm trying my best to understand. i'm trying to put my feelings away. i'm trying to get use to not meeting you . we have not meet for a week. i miss you. misses <3

no one.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

7:51 PM;

a day in JB simply means SHOPPING!!! haa haa.

well, we reached JB quite early. went to city square and look around. bought myself slippers :)). yay finally. haas. nothing much to look around there. so we went to angsana. nothing but shopping. well, not much of shopping though. just buy myself 2 shirts and a belt.

argh. whole day in JB is super tiring. :(

yesterday, my 2 aunts visited my family. like a family gathering kinda thing. they were all at my house :). finally i'm seeing my cousins after sooo loooong. well, they're good still. and we watched the repeat of singapore idol together. can i confess something? JAOKIM is supppper cute. haa. like his personality. so cheerful :). lala.

and i swear, i'm missing him like one mad woman now. he didn't talk to me since last friday till yesterday saturday afternoon. :( . and yesterday, he called me for just like a few minutes. and today no message or calls from him yet. wonder how is he. misses <3

don't fade and drift away from me :(((

no one.

Friday, June 16, 2006

10:54 PM;

yeah. guess it! moody day it is today. well, friday blues i guess or something. i don't know. something went wrong. and then, i went crazy. all by myself.

i'm so sick of life. so sick of everything around me. so sick of it.

i'm living in this world, alone, feeling unloved + unappreacited + unwanted and so on. name it.

well, anyways, went bowling today with ruz. and like normal, i can never win her. freeeaak. then, we walk around and ate KFC. went to laser flair and rent 4 cds. haa haa. and i wanted to rent this m18 movie. and the guy was like, 'i don't think you can rent this cause this is m18'. and i'm like DAMN! but then, i said, 'i'm gonna be 18 in 3 months time. please'. he gave in! wooohooo. yeah! aha!

went to royal sporting house. saw some nice stuffs :)). and yeah, drop by mos burger and get some frozen strawberries :)

and then, end of the day!

no one.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

1:54 PM;

A poem

The interview with God

I dreamed I had an interview with God

'So you would like to interview me?' God asked.

'If you have the time,' I said.

God smiled. 'My time is eternity.

What questions do you have in mind for me?'

'What surprises you most about humankind?'

God answered...

'That they get bored with childhood,

they rush to grow up, and then

long to be children again.

That they lose their health to make money...

and then lose their money to restore their health.

That by thinking anxiously about the future,

they forget about present,

such that they live in neither

the present nor the future

That they live as if they will never die,

and die as though they never lived.'

God's hand took mine

and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...

'As a parent, what are some of life's lessons

you want your children to learn?'

'To learn they cannot make anyone

love them. All they can do

is let themselves be loved.

To learn that it is not good

to compare themselves to others.

To learn to forgive

by practising forgiveness.

To learn that it only takes a few seconds

to open profound wounds in those they love,

and it can take many years to heal them.

To learn that a rich person

is not one who has the most,

but is one who needs the least.

To learn that there are people

who loved them dearly,

but simply have not yet learned

how to express or show their feelings.

To learn that two people can

look at the same thing

and see it differently.

To learn that it is not enough that they

forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.'

'Thank you for your time,' I said humbly.

'Is there anything else

you would like your children to know?'

God smiled and said,

'Just know that I am here...always.'

-author unknown

nice thoughts isn't it? got it from a book called DOUBLE WEDDING written by PATRICIA SCANLAN :). finally i'm reading book after so many years. and it's definitely one of the sweetest, i can say :)

so what is it about?Jessica and Mike, the most united couple you can ever find. they were so madly in love with each other and can never take their hand off each other. while on the other hand, Carol and Gary, a couple faaaar from perfect. Jessica and Carol were friends since young. Jessica, led a very blissful life, with a family who always stand by her and Mike, a boyfriend, who just love her unconditionally. unlike Carol whose family was ignorant and Gary can never treat her right.

afraid that Gary might chicken out last minute, Carol suggested a double wedding, the last thing Jessica wanted. Jessie was reluctant about the double wedding. she just wanted a day for herself and Mike and make the best out of it. as per normal, Carol (the drama queen) said something and made Jessie pitied her and, in the end, agreed to the double wedding.

double wedding plans went on till Carol decided to break it off with Gary, thinking that they were not for each other. but things happen, and they got back together. and so, the double wedding was carried on. everything went on so fine till the wedding day itself, when Carol and Gary was about to walk down the aisle, she broke it off with Gary. she can't carry on with Gary and she knew it. their vows would mean nothing.

and this is the sweetest part of the book. a year after Jessie and Mike's married, she was looking forward to celebrating their first year anniversary. she was forced to wake up in the morning, getting ready without knowing what's going on. till Tara, her aunt, told her everything. Mike planned their anniversary so perfect that Jessie will never forget.

"Well you're getting married again, properly this time, with no dramatics and tragedy - just your own little wedding all to yourselves. Mike and Katie arranged it all. Fathe Henry's going to officiate at the renewal of your wedding vows---", Tara declared happily.

OH MY GOD!!! isn't that sweet. having your husband to plan all this. haa haa. this story make me go to my dreamland again. haa haa. SWEET TOTALLY :)). can i marry Mike? haa. i just don't want Carol to be my friend. haahaa.

LOVES <3

no one.

Monday, June 12, 2006

8:33 PM;

l o n e l y

make out the words. it spell lonely.

something that i've been feeling the whole day :(

one month one day to go :(. it's taking so long. i've got to hang in there.

no one.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

10:11 AM;

:). i went out with him yesterday. and it was a very happy day. well, at least i felt happy. it's been a long time since i last went out with him :)

firstly, we went to suntec. reached there at about 4. and we went to queue for the tickets to watch CARS :). it was quite a long queue. but what do you expect? it's saturday night, it's suntec and it's holiday period. met a few west springs down there. after buying the ticket, we went arcade :). yay. and i met larry (of all people -.-).

and soon, it was 5. so we got ourselves some popcorns and watched the movie. it's a nice show though. and the star is called LIGHTNING MCQUEEN :)). haa. and as per normal, i can never eat popcorns without messing it up in the end. my seat was like covered with popcorns :x.

after movie, walked around a while. and he bought his gundam. and then, we went to eat. yum yum. well, we just ate KFC. but yeah, it's been a long time since i ate KFC too. haa. after dinner, we went esplanade a while. almost lost our way there :x.

and it's a WARNING to all of you. never ever ever go to esplanade during this period of time. it's like school holiday plus art festivals during june. and it's full with people. i mean it's ok to be filled with people. but it's filled with UNWANTED people. you know all those attention seekers. brings down my mood. we didn't spend more then 10 mins there. seeing the environment, we're like can we just go home? and there's police too. i think they caught some guys.

and so, we went home. and in the train, he was feeling so tired that he wanted to sleep.
me : you so tired. sleep la.
him : don't want. later you alone.
and i, almost reply, 'it's ok. i'm used to being alone'. okay. be glad i didn't say that.

and he walked me home. we talk a lot as we walked home. we talked about him going NS especially. and he told me, there's nothing i should be scared of :(.

convinced and happy :). thanks for the great day yesterday :) LOVE you <3

no one.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

8:17 PM;

oh well, guess the title tells it all :). HONEY. heard of it? it's some hip hop movie that you gotta watch! and jessica alba was so hot in the movie :) and she kept saying 'your flavour is hot!'. sweeeet. and watching it, just make you want to learn dance! and yeah, all in the mind and never do it. well, if i had the chance to, i wouldn't mind going for dancing. i loove dancing. it's cool :)

well, today was the last paper of common test. yipee. big yipee. now it's time for shopping, play, play and play :). and guess what, we just celebrated someone's birthday today. yup yup. BJORN's birthday. be glad :)

yup. it's all the pizzas, the soup, the drumlets and breadstix (i know it's like not pizza hut again. but i don't mind. i looove pizzas. never get enough of it). not forgetting the cake of course. and thanking JOANNE CHUA for a good taste for cakes. the cake was delicious. but too bad. i'm bloated. i'm so gonna get that cake for mum next month. it's her birthday :).

anyways, back ====> to BJORN's birthday. is was cool and sweet. and fun of course. it's like yay the whole class was there EXCEPT for justin and gang and jackson. or else, we would have full attendance. man. this was the first time something i organized had a great turn out. to my class, thanks for the fun :). we'll have more of this fun yeah? well, if you guys bother to have it. who's birthday next? haa haa.

and of course, it's photo time! man, i'm not gonna upload the whole thing. just gonna pick some few ones that i like :) enjoy ~

oh man. i loooook like some white ghost or something. all thanks to the flashie. but i like the photo still :)

the girls. okay, the other three ~~was~~ were missing.

the super delicious cake yum yum :). don't get tempted.

foxy foxy. grant me my wish. oh man that reminds me of wishing stairs :x

it was 15 of us. well, yeah 15.

and that's the girls. well, now the other three were missing.

and finally, me and my girls. and please don't look at my eyes. i don't know why it looks so horrible ~

and oh man. i mish YOU :(

oh well, two more months. two more months. two more months...

no one.

5:09 PM;

and i swear that,
i can kill myself now
that,
i can cry till my tears dry
that,
i'm losing grip
that,
i'm i can't hold on anymore
that,
there's nothing left for me to hang on to
that,
there's nothing left in this world for me
that
i'm falling out of love
that
part of me is dying

please stop these feelings. please. please make me smile again. please stop these tears.

and i love you. and i miss you. and i'm losing touch to all those things we used to had. and it's fading away. drifting apart from me.

no one.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

3:09 PM;

y a -y .

two papers down. left two more.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow's lunch :)))) after my EBF paper. which means i'm left with one more paper. and this paper only cost 5% and there's only one topic to study. which means, there's nothing much left.

i'm looking forward to friday 4.40 sharp. i'm coming for my holidays :). yay. it's holidays soon. very soon. it's time to catch up with my friends :))). especially the babes.

i'm looking forward to saturday. another day to spend with you. hope everything goes well :)

i'm looking forward to sunday. i'm going malaysia for SHOPPING :D.

and why, after so much to look forward for, i still feel so down. so not right. so ------. just felt far apart from everyone :(((((((((. how long more do i have to hold on? can i just end this just like that? it's killing me

s l o w l y

:((((

i'm feeeling soooo

D-O-W-N :(

no one.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

8:39 PM;

hmm. holiday is nearby. i'm hoping this hell week will end faster. i'm so looking forward to the holidays. to catch up with my sleep! haven't been having good sleep lately. i need a rest! from books and lecture slides :)

and i definitely have thought of my 3 wishes over the holidays :
1) esplanade - i so want to go esplanade!!!
2) collect seashells - it's been a long time since i collect seashells
3) a walk at the park near my house - i haven't been there for ages!!

please grant my 3 wishes :)

LOTSLOVES <3

no one.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

6:59 PM;

yes yes. chocolates and music. who can live without those two. hee hee. me la. chocolates are so irresistible. and there's no life without music.

chocolates. just the thought of it is making me drool. yum yum. and never a day pass without me eating it. :D. no wonder i fall sick always :x.

tobelerone : the yellow package chocolate. oh man. yum yum. it's delicious. especially the white thingy in the chocolate and the nuts.

m&m : who don't know this chocolate? it's colourful and nice :). especially the ones with nuts inside. i don't really like the plain milk m&m.

hersheys : yes! cookies and cream. oh oh. makes me feel good :D. i won't miss this out either.

ferrero rocher : this is like the tastiest chocolates ever. and it's best as a gift. can't miss out this golden chocolate. yums.

kinder bueno : i looooove this chocolate. but too bad. it always come in a packet of two. which is like so small. when i feel rich then i'll buy it. hee hee.

now is music time :)). hees. life will be soooo super boring with no music. i'm like so attach to my mp3. during the weeks of its repairing, i miss music so much. hee hee. all i can do is listen to music when i'm home or school using my laptop. music music music :)

the well-dressed rock band. THE CLICK FIVE. yesh! it is my favourite band currently. i'm like so addicted to their songs. i loooove click five :). it's been two years since their existence and they've made it big. yeahs. should try and listen to their songs :D

haa haa. bet no one know who's this. it's AJ from Backstreet Boys. can't find a nice group pic la. so AJ shall represent the whole group :)))). love his image and his unique voice. and i looove their song too. i'll never miss listening to backstreet boys. be it their old songs or those new ones. i'm glad they made it together again :). bsb rocks!

no one but BLACK EYED PEAS. yes, i think their like the best hip hop group. and fergie is soooo hot! she's cool. and loove their song especially let's get it started which never fails to make me high!

hmm. simple plan. nothing to say. their music is nice and LOUD!

and i'll never forget kelly clarkson. her music rocks. she's the best american idols so far. too bad. i can't find a nice kelly picture. so i can't post any picture. :(

lala. this is my daily dosage of music and chocolates. i don't know why i'm writing this. but i feel like it. so here it is :)

no one.