I feel myself slipping once again,
I know what's to come now,
I've been here before.
Loneliness and despair,
just me and my thoughts,
my private struggle.
I don't want much,
just to be free from this darkness,
this pain, this fear.
I wish people didn't judge,
I'm not 'weak'!
I can't just 'pull myself together!'
I wish it was that easy.
I wish they understood,
I wish I didn't have to pretend,
I wish I didn't have to hide,
I wish I wasn't me!

i want you to be by my side. and yet, when you're around i felt so out of place. i don't know what i want and what i need - it's a mixture of feelings. when i felt down, i wish you are here. when i cry, i wish you're here. when i need a hug, i wish you're here. when i need someone to talk to, i wish you're here.

and i continue wishing...wishing you're here..