Thursday, July 19, 2007
10:25 PM;
today, isn't a day i want to go through.
i want it gone, forever. erased.
but, no, it can't.
let's see what screwed my day today.
oh yes, how could anyone forget how they screw their paper, although it was just a quiz. it contains marks, which could probably pull up your overall marks. even though it may be just one or two marks, it makes a difference. it's nicer to go around saying i scored 77 instead of 76. and i felt like an idiot, screwing each question in the paper. no one had any idea what these questions did to my confidence. my confidence in scoring zero went up quickly. and this just means another hour - or two - more of mugging for exam papers, just to get the proper stuffs in my head. well done zie. i'm so proud of you.
and what else could make my day. it's my assignment briefing. how enjoyable. it's exciting seeing everyone's faces getting blur, and soon looks like question marks. and the lecturer went on talking and talking, blissfully (and proudly), about the assignment she managed to set. unfortunately, i was there to hear the nonsense. and her words aren't very encouraging. i'm pretty much screwed for this assignment too.
kept quiet the whole day. had nothing much to say. okay, maybe i did say some stuffs to distract my mind. but my mind continue wondering, "what if i..." and i've got no answer to any of it.
impeccable.
and i cried till i feel like stopping.
but i've got no reason.
i've got no idea why.
i just don't know.
the tears eventually stopped.
and i'm still looking for a reason, to cry.
no one.
she's someone in your life
she's someone you love <3
she'll go nasty if you make her cry.
libra